Started the Game

this is the first time she's ever thought before that-
thought before she let him
tear off her clothes- force her down-
force himself within her- this is the first time she's had time to think-
was allowed thought-
usually the devil in her mind is too interested in the lie-
too interested in the covering up
of her past- her mistakes- the rape-
she always thought than just one more would make it better-
would make it easier to forget- wash away all her sins-
maybe if she had control in this one situation- just once more-
than she could believe it wasn't her fault-
it wasn't her that started the game.

-a.