Love.

i wonder if you think of me now-
years later
and the safe choices made-

do you remember the love we whispered into the night?
the coffee we made in the morning
and how our smiles
were contagious.

i wonder if you think of me now-
while you wake up beside her-
kiss her-
do you remember how you hated sleep
because you wanted to be alive in every moment?

do you think of her while smelling her hair-
while she's dressing up for you-
do remember how i waited for you-
how our love was so noticeable
and full of lies to everyone.

how none of that mattered- because really, there was just us.
us and that was close enough. no words beyond that-
nothing more i could say to you
except love.
because it actually was frustrating enough to be that.

-a.