it's okay if i'm not her
if i'm more me
than i really want.
more than anyone really desires.
life continues on.
it sucks, but the world doesn't end.
drama is overrated
and even though the blond
and beauty looks like it's the answer
it's really only the beginning
and the question is one you're taught
to ignore-
to not ask-
because the truth is
no one has control
and the white lines
only add to the spin.
you think you're on top
but the position switches
and without your consent
you realize
you've pledged your life-
your soul

for a couple lousy nights
of glitz
and lukewarm sex.

-a.