i've never been a fan of fragile
the pause
and motion forward
with the air of manipulation-
you'd never suspect me
but be constantly considering the option.
there's this shadow to me-
moment of mystery
even though
i've left all my cards on the table.
the game is
always a game-
even with these words-
even with
everything i've never wanted.
i'll still play forward
and win
only to get up and walk away.

-a.